Euphonical

All these days, I have been writing poems and my complex thoughts. Now I have a sudden realization that I should write down whatever that is going through my mind. I decided to give it an attempt and to see what comes up……

At present, the situation around me is not so encouraging. Both, my personal as well as professional life is at a stand still. I want something new….. new means a new environment… a change from the routine….. i know that everybody experiences such things through out their life’s…. but when it comes to self, its quite disturbing….. we tend to lose interest in things around us…..

My senior manager for the last 3.5 years is being shifted to a different department….. I thoroughly understand the undercurrents…. but I can do nothing but accept whatever is happening….a feeling of helplessness. He was a man with deep compassion for the fellow beings, be it his colleague, friend or anybody around. A committed man… married both to his organization and his job…. he was instrumental in retaining many employees in the company….. and the price that he had to pay for his commitment, which I believe, is truly dissentient and objectionable. And I want to say this to all you deaf ears………. “what you did now is fallacious and shows extreme callowness!!!!!!!!!!

I am only one, but still I am one;
I cannot do everything,
but still I can do something;
and because I cannot do everything,
I will not refuse to do something that I can do….

-Edward Everett Hale

Every instance of heartbreak can teach us powerful lessons about creating the kind of love we really want.

In sync with the spirit of the time……….the spirit characteristic of an age or generation………the spirit so unaltered, so unchanged!!!!!

At first, I never believed in it…. tried not to cogitate about it and never ever tried to abide by it….i consider this as lack of perception, intuition and imagination….

Then I realized that this spirit is true and unfeigned. True to the core…. completely innocent and impeccant…. gentle and docile….

I made up my mind and decided to pursue this spirit. I waited for the dawn to hold me with its golden fingers…… to hug me gently and to feel comfortable in its bosom…..to experience the lovely feeling which i have heard about…..and wished that it will exculpate me…… but its always late when the realization dawns on me……

and then it was morning….

His face was a careless carving
a bad workman’s ugly sculpture
ugliness in all its vigour
was a bad omen to all those pass by

It was a tragic end to a happy life
a beautiful flower withering in the sun
was handsome like a dew drop
but is cautiously vanishing in daylight

He has reached the evening of his life
now its time to bid adieu
the mighty came like a cunning fox
and took him away from this dirt…………………..

You reminded me of my long lost love,
and dug my love’s burial ground,
has committed an unforgivable mistake,
and wounded my already wounded heart…….

Oh cruel! my heart is still bleeding,
bleeding at the cost of my love’s life,
do not punish me yet again,
this heart can gather nothing more……………

“Every morning in Africa, a deer wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be killed………,
Every morning a lion wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the slowest deer or it will starve to death…….,
It doesn’t matter whether you are a lion or a deer….when the sun comes up, you’d better be running………..!!!”

For the past quarter of a dozen years, I have been running slower than the slowest deer…… Its high time to sharpen my faculties and exhort for an ultimate renaissance….. rise like a phoenix from the ashes of desolation….!!!!

My pyre is already decorated……. decorated with insane manifestations of imbecile beings…. whose strategies and approach seems harebrained and cretinous….!!!!

Its time for a dash….a final sprint towards the long forgotten goals…… a lam from the imbroglio and pandemonium……. and the much wanted inspiration imbibed from “The African Lesson”!!!!!!

Severely burnt, severely crushed
I stand here with nothing to earn
loosely tied, perpetually disfigured
I stand here mentally opaqued

Lonliness, I say is a blessing to me
but bane to many who detest it
living life is a burden to me
and that is how I wanted it to be……….

As I fly like a seabird,
but with directions so ignorant,
enjoying every bit
of my precious, priceless life……………

Many things I propose in my so small a stay,
but there is something adamant to dispose..
death as a subtle thief sneaked in to my life..
took away, my so small but precious priceless life….!!!!

I have realized that my words are obsolete…… my thoughts rusty….my emotions abstract…..and every thing about me is archaic…..

I decided to look at my life with a different perspective…. I looked in to the mirror to see what adorns it…..I felt as if I have turned blind…..I couldnt see anything…. not even a vague reflection….not even a silhouette…..just dark greyish smoke……thick suffocating smoke………..

I felt a pain in my back….I could feel the flow of hot blood….it was running down the back of my legs…. I looked down…. saw a pool of blood around me…..I turned around to get a glimpse of the friend who did it to me…..nobody was there….I looked again….this time more carefully…..through the smoke I could see familiar faces….happy faces…..faces of people whom I know…..my parents, my family, my friends, my acquaintances…………

the rhapsody continues……….