In sync with the spirit of the time……….the spirit characteristic of an age or generation………the spirit so unaltered, so unchanged!!!!!

At first, I never believed in it…. tried not to cogitate about it and never ever tried to abide by it….i consider this as lack of perception, intuition and imagination….

Then I realized that this spirit is true and unfeigned. True to the core…. completely innocent and impeccant…. gentle and docile….

I made up my mind and decided to pursue this spirit. I waited for the dawn to hold me with its golden fingers…… to hug me gently and to feel comfortable in its bosom…..to experience the lovely feeling which i have heard about…..and wished that it will exculpate me…… but its always late when the realization dawns on me……

and then it was morning….

Severely burnt, severely crushed
I stand here with nothing to earn
loosely tied, perpetually disfigured
I stand here mentally opaqued

Lonliness, I say is a blessing to me
but bane to many who detest it
living life is a burden to me
and that is how I wanted it to be……….

I have realized that my words are obsolete…… my thoughts rusty….my emotions abstract…..and every thing about me is archaic…..

I decided to look at my life with a different perspective…. I looked in to the mirror to see what adorns it…..I felt as if I have turned blind…..I couldnt see anything…. not even a vague reflection….not even a silhouette…..just dark greyish smoke……thick suffocating smoke………..

I felt a pain in my back….I could feel the flow of hot blood….it was running down the back of my legs…. I looked down…. saw a pool of blood around me…..I turned around to get a glimpse of the friend who did it to me…..nobody was there….I looked again….this time more carefully…..through the smoke I could see familiar faces….happy faces…..faces of people whom I know…..my parents, my family, my friends, my acquaintances…………

the rhapsody continues……….

Everyday I wake up to realize tht nothing is the same..everything seems to be a lot different… I wonder what is in store for me each day..!!!
I wake up to a blue light blinding my vision, I could hear some loud music vociferating in my ears as if an earphone is plugged in…. I try 2 remove it frm my ears but the effort was in vain and the music continued 2 flow endlessly…. I tried to close my ears but the music persisted …….a perpetual earphone was plugged in to my ears…..

I continued to search 4 things that will make me happy… though I realize tht there is nothing called ultimate happiness but only intermittent impulses of happiness!!!!

Sometimes I feel vulnerable….so vulnerable to desires, to passions, to emotions, to love and much more…. sometimes I feel so fragile, so delicate, so brittle… even the slightest vibration can damage my soul…. I wonder why I am putting on an unbreakable, hard and opaque cover all over me.. when i am so easily ramified and annihilated by even a gentle vibe… voluntary or involuntary..!!!!

This might be another masterpiece created by the Ultimate Hand…. who also gave forms to the turtle and the oyster….!!!!

And here He made a handicapped turtle……..!!!!!!

You came in to my lush green garden
with infinite variety of seasons
the herbs and the child lawn
greeted you with smile so beloved.

My thoughts are still rusting
wondering what made you mine
can we ever pledge what knot-
the lawn and the dew drop sense.

Yonder, I say to my dear rose
in the far western horizon we meet
not this day, not tomorrow
at the end of this act so beautifully played.

A role so venomous I play
venomous to the holder and the beholder
treachery in all its vigour
would perish only with my last breath…………….!!!!!!!!